Thoughts of the week 31

Have you ever watched people reacting in an overly “sweet” way to people and wondered if it was real or an act?  Or noticed they would say one thing and do or mean another?  I don’t know about you, but I am well aware that there are times I have and do hold myself back a bit in order to work out what is ACTUALLY going on.

I grew up never really sure, deep within, that everything was the way it looked from the outside.  Everything appeared to be amazing, but was it?  There were times my emotions and thoughts were so tangled up I couldn’t work anything out.  However, if I even vaguely hinted about it, I felt ignored by nearly everyone.  

Now I’m not saying that it happened with everyone in my past, but it often left me feeling uncomfortable around others because I just couldn’t work out their ideas and motivation for what they said and thought.  There have always been some people I knew or hoped I could trust.

In fact, I found that quite a good way to discover what people were really like was to not tell them who I was related to, but just my first name.  If they then treated me with a distinct lack of respect or interest I knew they weren’t what they seemed when they were introduced to me by my parents and were “lovely and sweet” and said things like how wonderful and cute I was.  I would just stand there, eyebrows raised, say “thanks” and ask them what drink they wanted, turn and leave the room.

But you know what?  Not everybody has bad motivation behind what they do.  As individuals you react to other people in different ways - sometimes because they remind you of something that happened in your past, or they trigger a bad emotion in you.  

TREASURE

The most important thing for me to remember is not to judge people on what I think they are or what emotions they trigger in me.  Nobody knows the back story, and even if I do, it doesn’t mean I understand because our paths are all so unique.