Thoughts of the Week 30

I don’t think you’ll be surprised to hear I’ve been thinking about how having low self-esteem has impacted my life for many years.  And you’re right, I’m not exactly where I would like to be, but I am much further into respecting myself than I ever have been.

One of the things I have been considering is just how much it impacts everything you are and do and say.  When I moved to Scotland, my self-esteem was so low that for everything I expressed that I thought or wanted or wanted to do started with an apology.  Basically, I was actually apologising for simply being alive and thinking I was a “burden” to anyone and everyone who met me.

And truthfully, that’s not a good way to live.  We have been placed on this earth, at this time, in this place because we EACH have a unique purpose that only we can fill.  So when you apologise for even being yourself, you are not completing your mission.  No, not Mission Impossible but the reason you are here.

Just think about it.  If you find yourself always apologising, stop and think about it a second.  Would you like to hear YOUR CHILD, or even someone you love dearly thinking so low of themselves they can’t make a comment on anything without “preparing” people for it by apologising?  Does it help either them or the person/s listening?

And what about somebody like her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II?  Do you think she would walk into a room and apologise for who she was and the fact that she represented so much both within herself and on behalf of the monarchy and many other countries of the world?  Of course she wouldn’t!  She knew she had a purpose and she had to be confident and purposeful about what she did and said.

TREASURE

I know that I shouldn’t apologise for being myself.  My role in this life needs to be completed with courage and confidence and I need to share that with others around me.