Thoughts of the week 28

As you have seen, I have thinking about decisions we make quite a bit.  And the fact I am going to be 51 on Monday - how did I get so old?  But in spite of mentioning decisions, I realised that I haven’t talked about judgements we make.  

If you have ever watched the TV series Columbo, you will see a really scruffy police lieutenant with a tatty car and many people underestimate his ability and some even question if he really is with the police.  I am sure you know the old saying “Appearances can be deceiving” and it’s true!  

For many years, in spite of struggling with depression, I think I was pretty good at hiding how i really was from many people because I would pretend to be happy and smile and be jolly and laugh at jokes and things.  BUT on the inside, I felt all shrivelled up and just wanted to go and be in a dark room and not see anyone.  On the outside, however, I tried to make out life was perfect.

I’m not saying that I tell everyone I am struggling - took me years to even admit it to myself.  In fact, it was only in my 50th year I managed to do so completely.  I did tell people some of it, but kept much of it as locked away as I could.

 You see, people judge from the outside.  They either simply don’t see “you” (the inside part of you) or they don’t want to for many different reasons.  We tend to judge from our own past experiences and that colours how we see the world.  

TREASURE

I need to try and see the person for who they are, not who they portray to be and remember everyone has circumstances and pressures I may not know about or understand.